Propelled by the feeling of Worry, Anxiety
"I am unerring, therefore I impose a self-chosen reality to guarantee the consistency of my world."
We disavow when we avert our attention away from distress and toward our own familiar maneuvers. Before the mouth can weave a plausible deceit, we learn to turn our sight away; finding sanctuary in the mobile’s blur over our heads or the cool, blank safety of the intervening dark. We enforce a temporary, false reality where any overwhelming threat momentarily ceases to be observed. In later life, when guilt or fear demand recognition, this neonate impulse surfaces again, not as a physical turn, but as the polished cognitive maneuver we call rationalization.
As adults we Disavow (or Rationalize) as a means to experience ourselves as Calm, Composed
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There is a consensus reality - where we perceive that which is agreed upon as reliable. In this shared reality, we generally see four “acceptable” combinations of defense mechanisms operating. Developed in early childhood, they continue to operate as a basic temperamental style throughout adulthood. Here we see Disavowing as it combines with its four common partners.
When Disavowing is combined with Detaching =
I behave as a Castaway - Disavowing my feelings while seeking to be Attuned
When Disavowing is combined with Absorbing =
I behave as a Paranoid - Disavowing my feelings while seeking to be Trustworthy
When Disavowing is combined with Withdrawing =
I behave as a Mercenary - Disavowing my feelings while seeking to be Abiding
When Disavowing is combined with Recoiling =
I behave as a Toiler - Disavowing my feelings while seeking to be Steadfast
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When Disavowal is combined with Detachment, I behave as a Castaway - Disavowing my Indifferent feelings while seeking to be Meticulous
Active in the everyday Personas of the Architect, the Trouble Shooter, the Defender, and the Guardian
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When Disavowal is combined with Absorption, I behave as a Paranoid - Disavowing my Inferior feelings while seeking to find myself Trustworthy
Active in the everyday Persona of the Conspirator and the Loyalist
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When Disavowing is combined with Withdrawal, I behave as a Mercenary - Disavowing my Despondent feelings while seeking to be Abiding
Active in the everyday Personas of the
Diplomat, the Straight Shooter, the Chancellor, and the Advisor
Disavowal as a Dark Wave in Non-Consensus Reality
As our attachment to the rotating Defense Structures within us dissolves, attention turns to disembodied dark waves that we find alive in our environment. Dark wave energies are experienced outside the accepted norms of reality; sometimes occurring in our sex lives, more often in the form of compelling Doppelgangers - the “Others” - operating outside that which we find acceptable.
As we gain a more personal relationship to these Dark Wave entities, we place ourselves at the Gates of Dawn.
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Do you find yourself disturbed by the appearance of those with Histrionic tendencies in your world? Might you recognize in their appearance, a doppelgänger to your own unresolved actualization of Poise?
Open to the sensations of this exaggerated self, suffering when not the center of attention.
A state of disavowal and containment of one’s feelings can block reality and summon the Dark Wave entity witnessed in
The Jinn
(the Arabian spirits who lead mortals astray with deceptive logic)
This state of reality-blockade can best be soothed by giving attention to Poise
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Do you find yourself disturbed by the appearance of the Schizotypal in your world? Might you recognize in their appearance, a doppelgänger to your own unresolved actualization of Order?
Open to the sensations of this endless defiance, adrift in a lonely world of perceived signs and special meanings.
A state of disavowal and discharge of one’s feelings can block reality and summon the Dark Wave entity witnessed in
Ahriman
(the Persian evil spirit obscuring human brains from Truth)
This state of reality-blockade can best be soothed by giving attention to Order
Both the Sensationalist (Jinn) and Fabulous Creep (Ahriman) suffer an unmet aspiration for
Benevolent
Benevolent Optimism
Optimism
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Actualizing the Great Beaver qualities of Poise
and the Great Bats quality of Order
offers Benevolent Optimism
to the dark wave energies of the Jinn and Ahriman
Focus on the call of these Pipers in you.
They point you toward non-dominant aspects of your True Self.
What would you be willing to learn and actualize from your own Poise and Order?
To call upon Poise and Order to meet
The Jinn and Ahriman energies,
first set aside the impulse to disavow feelings of Insatiability and Spitefulness.
In the pause of that quiet moment, turn there to the presence of these two Pipers at the Gates of Dawn heralding the Great Bear of Divine Equanimity.
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To learn Poise:
Give attention to the teachings of the Bodhisattva in Buddhism.
This call is aided by observing the following Personas and Natural Forces already at work in my world.
The work of the Fool as
Vacuum Generator: A source of virtual particles and potential energy, fluctuating between existence and non-existence. Like a particle at the event horizon of a black hole, turning ambiguity into reality
The work of the Rescuer as
Gravitational Well: An irresistible pull, created by unseen curvature of spacetime around a massive object. Laws that curve assumed densities of matter
The work of the Free Spirit as
Cosmic Ray: A high-energy particle from outside the solar system, carrying information about distant cosmic phenomena. Distant horizons, shaping current location
The work of the Philanthropist as
Magnetosphere: A magnetic field shielding the Earth by deflecting solar winds. A protective and influential aura
The work of the Adept as
Resonant chamber: Selectively amplifies electromagnetic information, filtering noise for refined data. Like a cathedral, echoing sound
The work of the Ringmaster as
Power Amplifier: Enhances influence, maximizing visibility and recognition. Like a flock of birds flying in formation
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To learn Order:
Give attention to the teachings of Sophia in Gnosticism.
This call is aided by observing the following Personas and Natural Forces already at work in my world.
The work of the Heartbreaker as
Gravitational Vortex: A four-dimensional space-time twist caused by a massive, spinning object. Captivating chaos
The work of the Sympathizer as
Nuclear Chain: A self-sustaining series of nuclear reactions, leading to a rapid release of energy and growth. Like widespread empathy, rapidly amplifying emotional responses through a system
The work of the Opportunist as
Nuclear Cross-Section: A measure of the probability that a nuclear reaction will occur when a nucleus is bombarded by a particle. Assessing the probability of interactions, adjusting to exploit the most favorable conditions for a reaction.
The work of the Dissident as
Chain Reactor: A system that sustains a series of reactions, capable of controlled or uncontrolled energy release. Creating events that challenge the status quo, capable of igniting significant change
The work of the Samaritan as
Signal Amplifier: An object that increases the amplitude and clarity of a signal, enhancing its power, reach, and impact. Like a microphone, boosting faint sounds
The work of the Host as
Charge Matrix: Environment that allows the exchange and interaction of charges, governed by electrostatic force. Like static cling, attraction and repulsion.
To those practicing Poise and Order under the guidance of Divine Equanimity there arises the Sacred Technology of
Naked Perception
(The aptitude to see reality exactly as it is, without conceptual filters or aversion.)
This perfect clarity, the fruit of inner poise and mental order, attends the defensive and self-imposed false realities of the Fabulous Creep (Ahriman) and Sensationalist (Jinn).