Propelled by the feeling of Worry, Anxiety
Disavowal
a defense against
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We disavow when we avert our attention away from humiliating distress and toward our own familiar maneuvers. Before the mouth can weave a plausible deceit, we learn to turn our sight away; finding sanctuary in the mobile’s blur over our heads or the cool, blank safety of the intervening dark. We enforce a temporary, false reality where any overwhelming threat momentarily ceases to be observed. In later life, when guilt or fear demand recognition, this native impulse surfaces again, not as a physical turn, but as the polished cognitive maneuver we call rationalization.
So I become unerring, imposing my own self-chosen reality to guarantee the purity of my world.
As adults we Disavow (or Rationalize) as a means to experience ourselves as Calm, Composed
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There is a consensus reality - where we perceive that which is agreed upon as reliable. In this shared reality, Disavowal combines with four co-conspirators that help to shape one’s identity and life experience. Developed in early childhood, they continue to operate as a basic temperamental style throughout adulthood. Here we see Disavowing as it combines with its four common partners: detach, absorb, retreat, and recoil.
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When Disavowal is combined with Absorption, I behave as a Paranoid - Disavowing my Inferior feelings while seeking to find myself Trustworthy
Active in the everyday Persona of the Conspirator and the Loyalist
Seeking Security while Disavowing and Absorbing from my feelings
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When Disavowal is combined with Retreat, I behave as a Mercenary - Disavowing my Despondent feelings while seeking to be Abiding
Active in the everyday Personas of the
Diplomat, the Straight Shooter, the Chancellor, and the Advisor
Seeking Engagement while Disavowing and Retreating from my feelings
Seeking Confidence while Disavowing and Recoiling from my feelings
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When Disavowal is combined with Detachment, I behave as a Castaway - Disavowing my Indifferent feelings while seeking to be Meticulous
Active in the everyday Personas of the Architect, the Trouble Shooter, the Defender, and the Guardian
Seeking Composure while Disavowing and Detaching from my feelings
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Defense Structures dissolve over time, allowing attention to turn to the Dark Waves ripples that have been occurring in their wake. Dark wave energies are experienced outside the accepted norms of reality; sometimes making their presence known in our sexual disinhibitions, more often in the acts of people we only know as Doppelgangers - the deplorable “Others” we struggle to keep at the periphery of our lives.
As we gain a more personal relationship to the entities which enliven Dark Wave energies, we place ourselves at the Gates of Dawn.
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Might you recognize in their appearance, a doppelgänger to your own unresolved actualization of Poise?
Open to the sensations of this exaggerated self, suffering when not the center of attention.
Do you find yourself disturbed by the appearance of EXHIBITIONISM in your world?
A state of disavowal and containment of one’s feelings can block reality and summon the Dark Wave entity witnessed in
The Jinn
(the Arabian spirits who lead mortals astray with dramatic allure)
This state of reality-blockade can best be soothed by giving attention to Poise
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Might you recognize in their appearance, a doppelgänger to your own unresolved actualization of Order?
Open to the sensations of this endless defiance, adrift in a lonely world of perceived signs and special meanings.
Do you find yourself disturbed by the appearance of the PERSECUTION in your world?
A state of disavowal and discharge of one’s feelings can block reality and summon the Dark Wave entity witnessed in
Ahriman
(the Persian evil spirit obscuring human brains from Truth)
This state of reality-blockade can best be soothed by giving attention to Order
Benevolent
Both the Sensationalist (Jinn) and Fabulous Creep (Ahriman) suffer personal insult at the world’s wrongness. They share an unmet aspiration for
Benevolent Optimism
Optimism
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Focus on the call of these Pipers in you.
They point you toward non-dominant aspects of your True Self.
What would you be willing to learn and actualize from your sense of Poise and Order?
To call upon Poise and Order to meet The Jinn and Ahriman energies,
first set aside the impulse to disavow feelings of Insatiability and Spitefulness.
In the pause of that quiet moment, turn there to the presence of these two Pipers at the Gates of Dawn.
Their perfect clarity attends the defensive and self-imposed false realities of the Fabulous Creep (Ahriman) and Sensationalist (Jinn).
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To learn Poise:
Give attention to the teachings of the Bodhisattva in Buddhism.
This call is aided by observing and learning
Sobriety AND Equanimity
from the following Personas already at work in consensus reality.
The work of the Fool
Like a particle at the event horizon of a black hole, turning ambiguity into reality
The work of the Rescuer
Laws that curve assumed densities of matter
The work of the Free Spirit
Distant horizons arriving to shape current location
The work of the Philanthropist
Silent shield, unwavering presence preserving home
The work of the Adept
Acoustic mastery; focusing vibrations, commanding space
The work of the Ringmaster as
Like a flock of birds flying in formation
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To learn Order:
Give attention to the teachings of Sophia in Gnosticism.
This call is aided by observing and learning
Equanimity AND Conviction
from the following Personas already at work in consensus reality.
The work of the Heartbreaker
Captivating chaos
The work of the Sympathizer
Like a Metta prayer rapidly amplifying lovingkindness
The work of the Opportunist
Assessing the probability of interactions, adjusting to exploit the most favorable conditions for a reaction.
The work of the Dissident
Creating events that challenge the status quo, capable of igniting significant change
The work of the Samaritan
Like an atmospheric mirror; refracting waves, extending reach
The work of the Host
Like static cling, governing attractions, inviting interaction.
Together they call forth the Great Bear of Divine Equanimity.
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