Propelled by the feeling of Bored, Indifferent
"I am unbearable, therefore I must sever my own continuity to create a safe, empty distance."
We detach when we render difficult experiences inaccessible, fragmenting reality to achieve a state of protective indifference. Similar to a babe “zoning out” when frightened, detaching creates a temporary, protective break in the continuity of the self. This proactive skill allows one to detach when an interaction becomes overwhelmingly upsetting, in order to achieve a state of emotional numbing. Over time one can arrive at states of intense congruence with one’s numbness. This can lead to feelings of disconnection from one's own identity and a trouble in establishing emotional presence and healthy interpersonal bonds.
As adults we Detach as a means to experience ourselves to be Awake, Attuned
Detachment in Consensus Reality
There is a consensus reality - where we perceive that which is agreed upon as reliable. In this shared reality, we generally see four “acceptable” combinations of the Detaching defense mechanisms operating. Developed in early childhood, they continue to operate as a basic temperamental style throughout adulthood. Here we see Detachment as it combines with its four common partners: containment, projection, withdrawal, and disavowal.
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When Detachment is combined with Containment, I behave as a Hedonist - detaching from my Insatiable feelings while seeking to be Achieving
Active in the everyday Persona of the Utopian and the Jester
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When Detachment is combined with Projection, I behave as a Daredevil - detaching from my Indignant feelings while seeking to be Regaling
Active in the everyday Personas of the The Wanderer, The Maverick, The Opportunist and the Dissident
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When Detachment is combined with Disavowal, I behave as a Castaway - Detaching from my Anxious feelings while seeking to be Meticulous
Active in the everyday Personas of the Architect, the Trouble Shooter, the Defender, and the Guardian
DETACHMENT as a Dark Wave in Non-Consensus Reality
As our attachment to the rotating Defense Structures within us dissolves, attention turns to disembodied dark waves that we find alive in our environment.
Dark wave energies are experienced outside the accepted norms of reality; sometimes occurring in our sex lives, more often in the form of compelling Doppelgangers - the “Others” - operating outside that which we find acceptable.
As we gain a more personal relationship to these Dark Wave entities, we place ourselves at the Gates of Dawn.
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Do you find yourself disturbed by the appearance of those with Borderline tendencies in your world? Might you recognize in its appearance, a doppelgänger to your own unresolved actualization of Devotion?
Open to the sensations of this uncontrollable polarizing instinct, suffering to keep all negativity at bay.
A state of Detachment from one’s own Deficiencies can block reality and summon the Dark Wave entity witnessed in the
Choronzon 333
(the "Dweller in the Abyss" in Crowley's Thelema)
This state of reality-blockade can best be soothed by giving attention to Devotion
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Do you find yourself disturbed by the appearance of Schizoid tendencies in your world? Might you recognize in its appearance, a doppelgänger to your own unresolved actualization of Vitality?
Open to the sensations of this vast internal silence, suffering to form a single connection.
A state of Detachment from one’s own Discouragement can block reality and summon the Dark Wave entity witnessed in
The Ginnungagap
(the Norse primordial void symbolizing emotional nothingness)
This state of reality-blockade can best be soothed by giving attention to Vitality
Both the Splitter (Choronzon) and Disenchanted (Ginnungagap) suffer the unmet aspirations for
Sanguine outward Generosity
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Actualizing the Great Wolf qualities of Devotion
and the Great Fawn qualities of Vitality
offers Sanguine outward Generosity
to the dark wave energies of the Splitter and the Survivalist
Focus on the call of these Pipers in you.
They point you toward non-dominant aspects of your True Self.
What would you be willing to learn and actualize from your own Devotion and Vitality?
To call upon Devotion and Vitality to meet
Choronzon 333 and Ginnungagap energies,
first set aside the impulse to detach from feelings of Deficiency and Depression.
In the pause of that quiet moment, turn there to the presence of these two Pipers at the Gates of Dawn heralding the Great Otter of Divine Veracity
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To learn Devotion:
Give attention to the teachings of Hanuman in Hinduism.
This call is aided by observing the following Personas and Natural Forces already at work in my world.
The work of the Guide as
Nuclear Fusion: A process of synthesis where light nuclei combine under extreme conditions, releasing vast energy and creating heavier elements. Like the engine of stars
The work of the Influencer as
Gravity: A mass-based deformation of spacetime; compelling objects to follow its path. A presence, altering the trajectories of those within its field.
The work of the Conspirator as
Subduction Zone: A region where one tectonic plate slides beneath another, generating immense friction and pressure. Unresolved conflicts, buried and held
The work of the Perfectionist as
Stellar Nucleosynthesis: A meticulous process of nuclear fusion; carefully forging heavier elements from lighter ones under immense pressure. Like a fractal, infinitely repeating a pattern of increasing complexity.
The work of the Entertainer as
Nuclear Binding: A unifying energy, constantly drawing nucleons into a shared existence.
The work of the Grandstander as
Incandescent Core: A self-generating source of luminous intensity. Inner radiance, attracting receptive gazes
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To learn Vitality:
Give attention to the stories of the Rainbow Serpent in Australian Aborigine.
This call is aided by observing the following Personas and Natural Forces already at work in my world.
The work of the Ally as
Strong Nuclear Force:The fundamental force that binds the protons and neutrons together in an atomic nucleus. A powerful, unifying presence that holds things together from within.
The work of the Iconoclast as
Diffraction Grating: A structure that scatters and separates electromagnetic waves, revealing hidden spectrums. Like a rainbow prism, splitting white light
The work of the Cassandra as
Resonance Amplifier: Intensifies and transmits hidden frequencies, amplifying their impact. A tuning fork, amplifying masked echoes
The work of the Dilettante as
Precision Engine: A dynamic transmutation process, constantly reshaping resources into usable energy. Calculated moves, for everlasting fuel
The work of the Insider as
Isotopic Signature: A unique arrangement of nuclear particles, possessing potential for radioactive decay or stable existence. Subtle variations, revealing hidden origins
The work of the Professional as
Nuclear Core Regulator : maintains a controlled and stable energy source, ensuring efficient resource output. Serving the whole by managing a delicate balance
