Propelled by the feeling of Inferiority
"I am fragile so I must ingest the external world to feel solid inside".
We absorb when we personalize things external to us, setting the foundation for internalizing rules and having a conscience. This is the pre-verbal foundation by which the self begins to construct its identity, pulling in the perceived strength and goodness of the caregiver to guarantee survival. However, using Absorption reflexively means that we also take in the caregiver's unexamined flaws which becomes fixed and rigid in the foundation of the self. The self is then condemned to act out these unchosen scripts, leading to profound struggles with self-esteem and identity.
As adults we Absorb as a means to experience ourselves as Secure
Absorption in Consensus Reality
There is a consensus reality - where we perceive that which is agreed upon as reliable. In this shared reality, Absorption combines with four “regrettable but actionable” co-conspirators that help to shape one’s identity and life experience.. Developed in early childhood, they continue to operate as a basic temperamental style throughout adulthood. Here we see Absorbing as it combines with its four common partners: disavowal, containment, recoiling, and discharging
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When Absorption is combined with Disavowal, I behave as a Paranoid - Absorbing the world’s Insatiable feelings while seeking to find myself Trustworthy
Active in the everyday Persona of the Conspirator and the Loyalist
Seeking Contentment while Absorbing and Disavowing my feelings
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When Absorption is combined with Containment, I behave as a Sycophant - absorbing the world’s Anxious feelings while seeking to be Exalting
Active in the everyday Personas of the Guide, the Confidant, the Vanguard, and the Entertainer
Seeking Benevolence while Absorbing and Containing my feelings
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When Absorption is combined with Recoiling, I behave as a Scapegoat - absorbing the world’s Discouraged feelings while seeking to be Outstanding
Active in the everyday Persona of the Perfectionist, and the Magus
Seeking Confidence while Absorbing and Recoiling from my feelings
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When Absorption is combined with Discharging, I behave as a Saboteur - absorbing the world’s spiteful feelings while seeking to be Achieving
Active in the everyday Persona of the Grandstander , the Professional, the Insider, and the Influencer
Seeking Optimism while Absorbing and Discharging my feelings
Absorption as a Dark Wave in Non-Consensus Reality
As our attachment to the rotating Defense Structures within us dissolves, attention turns to disembodied dark waves that we find alive in our environment. Dark wave energies are experienced outside the accepted norms of reality; sometimes occurring in our sex lives, more often in the form of compelling Doppelgangers - the “Others” - operating outside that which we find acceptable.
As we gain a more personal relationship to these Dark Wave entities, we place ourselves at the Gates of Dawn.
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Do you find yourself disturbed by the appearance of Depersonalization in your world? Might you recognize in its appearance, a doppelgänger to your own unresolved actualization of Vitality?
Open to the sensations of this outraged emptiness, suffering to fill a growing void.
A state of absorption and projection of one’s feelingscan block reality and summon the Dark Wave entity witnessed in
Wendigo
(the Algonquin figure representing cannibalistic hunger that grows as it consumes)
This state of reality-blockade can best be soothed by giving attention to Vitality
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Do you find yourself disturbed by the appearance of Masochism in your world? Might you recognize in its appearance, a doppelgänger to your own unresolved actualization of Spontaneity?
Open to the sensations of this self punishing grief, suffering in silence at every flaw.
A state of absorption and denial of one’s feelings can block reality and summon the Dark Wave entity witnessed in
La Llorona
(the Mexican figure of self-inflicted grief)
This state of reality-blockade can best be soothed by giving attention to Spontaneity
Both the Empty Vessel (Wendigo) and Submissive (LaLLorana) suffer an unmet aspiration for
Passionate
Passionate inner Generosity
Generous
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Actualizing the Great Dolphin qualities of Vitality
and the Great Otter qualities of Spontaneity
offers Passionate inner Generosity
to the dark wave energies of the Preta and La Llorona.
Focus on the call of these Pipers in you.
They point you toward non-dominant aspects of your True Self.
What would you be willing to learn and actualize from your own Divine Vitality and Spontaneity?
To call upon Vitality and Spontaneity to meet
Wendigo and La Llorona energies,
first set aside the impulse to absorb feelings of Indignance and Deficiency.
In the pause of that quiet moment, turn there to the presence of these two Pipers at the Gates of Dawn, heralding the Great Beaver of Divine Innocence.
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To learn Vitality:
Give attention to the teachings of the Rainbow Serpent in the Australian Aborigine.
This call is aided by observing the following Personas and Natural Forces already at work in my world.
The work of the Heartbreaker as
Fissure: A channel for raw power and expression. Like a volcanic eruption.
The work of the Guardian as
Nuclear Core: The atom's nucleus, held together by the strong nuclear force, a source of immense energy and enduring stability. Like the nucleus of a star
The work of the Architect as
Gravitational binding: Gravity's force holding celestial objects together, forming larger structures. Shaping disparate elements into a unified whole
The work of the Occultist as
Quantum field: Probabilistic behavior governed by uncertainty and superposition. Interactions leading to the fundamental forces of nature. hidden reality, woven from infinite possibility
The work of the Wanderer as
Escape Velocity: Minimum speed to escape gravity's pull; freedom from constraint. A trajectory set beyond limiting forces
The work of the Utopian as
Inductance: Stores energy in a magnetic field, resisting changes in current flow. gentle opposition to chaotic currents
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To learn Spontaneity:
Give attention to the teachings of Pu (the unworked wood) in Taoism .
This call is aided by observing the following Personas and Natural Forces already at work in my world.
The work of the Fixer as
Geomagnetic Field: A protective field of force generated by the movement of molten iron in the planet's core, which shields the atmosphere from solar winds and cosmic rays. Quietly deflecting the chaos of the outer world
The work of the Savant as
Spectral Emitter: A source of unique electromagnetic radiation, revealing the hidden composition and energy of its inner world. Issuing a unique fingerprint of insight
The work of the Diplomat as
Nuclear Isomer: A contained source of potent energy, capable of controlled release and transformation. Releasing power only at the opportune moment
The work of the Genius as
Singularity: a region of zero volume and infinite density, a point where spacetime itself is warped beyond recognition. Absolute focus, erasing boundaries
The work of the Disrupter as
Nuclear Fission: Splitting of an atom's nucleus, releasing energy and introducing change and instability. Unleashing a chain reaction of change
The work of the Straight shooter as
Nuclear Ground State: A state of fundamental stability and balanced energy, providing a firm foundation. Self sustaining agent of change
To those practicing Vitality and Spontaneity under the guidance of Divine Innocence there arises the Sacred Technology of
Essential Presence
(The aptitude to fully inhabit one's physical being with vibrant, vital presence.)
This state of passionate internal generosity confers restoration to the internal void of the Empty Vessel (Wendigo) and the lack of self-ownership in the Submissive (La Llorana).