Propelled by the feeling of Insecure, Inferiority

We absorb when we personalize things external to us, setting the foundation for internalizing rules and having a conscience.

"I am fragile so I must ingest the external world to feel solid inside". This is the pre-verbal foundation by which the self begins to construct its identity, pulling in the perceived strength and goodness of the caregiver to guarantee survival. However, using Absorb reflexively means that we also take in the caregiver's unexamined flaws which becomes fixed and rigid in the foundation of the self. The self is then condemned to act out these unchosen scripts, leading to profound struggles with self-esteem and identity.

 

Loved, Secure

As adults we Absorb as a means to experience ourselves as Loved, Secure

  • There is a consensus reality - where we perceive that which is agreed upon as reliable. In this shared reality, we generally see four “acceptable” combinations of defense mechanisms operating. Developed in early childhood, they continue to operate as a basic temperamental style throughout adulthood. Here we see Absorbing as it combines with its four common partners.

    When Absorbing is combined with Containing =

    I behave as a Sycophant - absorbing other’s feelings while seeking to be Exalting

    When Absorbing is combined with Disavowing =

    I behave as a Paranoid - Absorbing other’s feelings while seeking to be Trustworthy

    When Absorbing is combined with Recoiling =

    I behave as a Scapegoat - absorbing other’s feelings while seeking to be Outstanding

    When Absorbing is combined with Discharging =

    I behave as a Saboteur - absorbing other’s feelings while seeking to be Achieving

Exalting Sycophant

Active in the everyday Personas of the Guide and the Entertainer

Trustworthy Paranoid

Active in the everyday Persona of the Conspirator

Outstanding Scapegoat

Active in the everyday Persona of the Perfectionist

Achieving Saboteur

Active in the everyday Persona of the Grandstander and the Influencer

  • Dark wave energies are experienced outside the accepted norms of reality, usually occurring in the form of a persistent Doppelganger, a nemesis to our accepted sense of selfhood.

    As our attachment to the rotating Defense Structures within us dissolves, attention turns to disembodied dark waves that we find alive in our environment. There are 18 available to the witnessing eye. As we gain a more direct relationship to these Dark Wave entities, we place ourselves at the Gates of Dawn.

 

Meet the Empty Vessel within

Do you find yourself disturbed by the appearance of Depersonalization in your world? Might you recognize in their appearance, a doppelgänger to your own unresolved actualization of Vitality?

A state of absorption in Indignity can block reality and summon the Dark Wave entity witnessed in

Wendigo

(the Algonquin figure representing the insatiable hunger that grows as it consumes)

Open to the sensations of this endless craving, suffering to fill a growing void.

This state of reality-blockade can best be soothed by giving attention to Vitality

 

Meet the Submissive within.

Do you find yourself disturbed by the appearance of Masochism in your world? Might you recognize in their appearance, a doppelgänger to your own unresolved actualization of Spontaneity

A state of absorption in Deficiency can block reality and summon the Dark Wave entity witnessed in

La Llorona

(the Mexican figure of self-inflicted grief)

Open to the sensations of this self punishing grief, suffering in silence at every flaw.

This state of reality-blockade can best be soothed by giving attention to Spontaneity

 

Both the Empty Vessel and Submissive suffer the unmet aspiration for

Passionate inner Generosity

  • Actualizing the Great Dolphin qualities of Vitality

    and the Great Otter qualities of Spontaneity

    offers Passionate inner Generosity

    to the dark wave energies of the Preta and La Llorona.

    Focus on the call of these Pipers in you.

    They point you toward non-dominant aspects of your True Self.

    What would you be willing to learn and actualize from your own Divine Vitality and Spontaneity?

I call upon Vitality and Spontaneity to meet

Wendigo and La Llorona energies

within myself and between myself and others as one Being.

First and foremost, set aside the impulse to absorb feelings of Indignance and Deficiency.

In the pause of that quiet moment, turn there to the presence of these two Pipers at the Gates of Dawn


To learn Vitality:

Give attention to the teachings of the Rainbow Serpent in the Australian Aborigine


To learn Spontaneity:

Give attention to the teachings of Pu (the unworked wood) in Taoism


Designed by True Self to meet the unmet needs of Dark Wave entities

and calling forth the Great Beaver of Divine Innocence.

 
 

  • This call is aided by observing the following Personas and Natural Forces already at work in my world.

    The work of the Heartbreaker as

    • Fissure: A channel for raw power and expression. Like a volcanic eruption.

    The work of the Guardian as

    • Nuclear Core: The atom's nucleus, held together by the strong nuclear force, a source of immense energy and enduring stability.  Like the nucleus of a star

    The work of the Architect as

    • Gravitational binding: Gravity's force holding celestial objects together, forming larger structures. Shaping disparate elements into a unified whole

    The work of the Occultist as

    • Quantum field: Probabilistic behavior governed by uncertainty and superposition. Interactions leading to the fundamental forces of nature. hidden reality, woven from infinite possibility

    The work of the Wanderer as

    • Escape Velocity: Minimum speed to escape gravity's pull; freedom from constraint. A trajectory set beyond limiting forces

    The work of the Utopian as

    • Inductance: Stores energy in a magnetic field, resisting changes in current flow. gentle opposition to chaotic currents

  • This call is aided by observing the following Personas and Natural Forces already at work in my world.

    The work of the Fixer as

    • Geomagnetic Field: A protective field of force generated by the movement of molten iron in the planet's core, which shields the atmosphere from solar winds and cosmic rays. Quietly deflecting the chaos of the outer world

    The work of the Savant as

    • Spectral Emitter: A source of unique electromagnetic radiation, revealing the hidden composition and energy of its inner world. Issuing a unique fingerprint of insight

    The work of the Diplomat as

    • Nuclear Isomer: A contained source of potent energy, capable of controlled release and transformation. Releasing power only at the opportune moment

    The work of the Genius as

    • Singularity: a region of zero volume and infinite density, a point where spacetime itself is warped beyond recognition. Absolute focus, erasing boundaries

    The work of the Disrupter as

    • Nuclear Fission: Splitting of an atom's nucleus, releasing energy and introducing change and instability. Unleashing a chain reaction of change

    The work of the Straight shooter as

    • Nuclear Ground State: A state of fundamental stability and balanced energy, providing a firm foundation. Self sustaining agent of change